Holy Heartburn & U/S Update!

First the good news! I had my 11w2d ultrasound on Monday and it went great! Check out this cutie!



Baby measured perfectly and was moving all over the place! Lots of backflips! Maybe our LO will be a gymnast like Mommy was! Heart rate was nice and strong at 160! Theo was smiling from ear to ear. Oh and we officially came out on facebook! Here is our announcement....I wrote "There is a little Pizza in the oven...Fully baked by October 2012" with this picture:



Now a little complaining time. Morning sickness has only gotten worse and is still all day long sickness. I puke about 5+ times a day. And 3 days ago I started getting HORRID heartburn. It's pretty much nonstop. Tums have become my new best friend.

I'll be coming into the second trimester soon (I'm 11w4d today) and I'm hoping some of these symptoms subside! I'm starting to get used to them at least. Seeing the smile on my husbands face everyday now because he is so happy about this baby just warms my heart. Vomiting sucks...heartburn blows...but I gotta say...Life is still pretty damn good :) WOuldn't have it any other way!

The Day to Day Vomit Struggle

Holy hell, does morning sickness suck or what?

It's killing me so badly right now. Every week or so I get one day that I start to feel better and I get all excited thinking, hey, maybe it's starting to subside!

The next day comes and NO SUCH LUCK! I've become very good friends with my toilet. The worst part is that while I'm in the process of the preliminary dry heaving and gagging that comes before the big show, I have to try and shove a pad or some toilet paper in my underwear because I pee my fricking pants every time I throw up. I should add that it's fun when it happens in a public place.

I'm praying hard that this will start to subside as I go into my 2nd trimester.

I just got a text from my husband and it says. "I love you baby. And I can't wait to hold *ours* this year. Also, I'm bringing home pizza."

It's reminders like those....and let's be honest...the pizza... that make it ALL worthwhile. :)

I'm sorry to say this but...

...pregnancy sucks.

I debated whether or not I should write about this because I know there are so many ladies out there who want this more than anything. And these are ladies that I care about. But you know what? I wanted this too and this is MY blog so here goes....

While we were struggling to conceive and then going through our miscarriage my heart was broken at the thought of not being able to experience pregnancy. I yearned to know what it felt like for life to grow inside me.

I finally got what I wanted and I could not feel worse. I am 9w3d today and I am in CONSTANT pain. I've been having IBS flare ups that leave me doubled over in pain and hysterically crying while straining to go to the bathroom and vomiting at the same time.

I get to go #2 maybe once every 4-5 days. I pee about 8-9 times/hour. And this horrible nausea rarely leaves me. I am constantly exhausted but can't sleep at night. My restless leg syndrome has also gotten 10x worse. There have been only two moments that made it worth it to me and those were the two times we have seen our gummy bear so far.

I've always said I wanted to have 3 kids. I will be lucky if I want to have another after this.

I am praying that things get better in the next few weeks. I love this baby so much already and desperately want to enjoy the incredible things taking place in my body but when you feel this awful, it's just so hard to see the silver lining.

I'm sorry if I seem like an asshole or if I seem insensitive to be complaining. But this is my journey and this is how I feel RIGHT NOW. I'm sure in a few weeks once I start growing my belly and feeling the baby kick I will feel completely different.

In the meantime I'll be praying to the pregnancy Gods to please please please let me feel better....even if just for a few hours!

The first trimester is NOT so fun.

I hate to complain. I really do. But honestly? The first trimester SUCKS! I feel crappy every minute of everyday. The nausea is constant, even during the night when I'm trying to sleep, so I'm not doing very much of it. I don't actually vomit very often but it's almost worse that I don't.

And the migraines. Are AWFUL. And my skin, my whole back and my shoulders are COVERED in acne. Not just normal pimples, but HUGE cyst like pimples. I'm supposed to be in the bridal party for my brother's wedding at the end of March and I'm DREADING it. I have to wear a strapless dress and I feel so embarrassed of my skin. It looks like I have irritated chicken pox. So gross.

Oh and every time I eat a meal my stomach blows up so big so that I look 6 months pregnant.

And I'm dying to know that my baby is healthy and growing. I have an ultrasound next Wednesday and I will be 7w4d. I think...no, I KNOW, that once I see that little heartbeat that this will all be real for me. And that this crappy first trimester will be so worth it to me. And then, I will do my very best to stop complaining. Promise :)