Gender Confirmation and Some Reflection

Well our u/s at 20 weeks confirmed what we were told at 15 weeks and that is that it is most certainly a sweet baby GIRL!  I am so happy.  I totally had these irrational thoughts that there would suddenly be a penis. LOL Not that it would be the end of the world, but I spent 3 hours putting up a girly tree decal in the nursery!  Which reminds me that I need to post some pictures soon!

I have been feeling tons of movement.  She kicks and punches me all day and I love every one of them.  My husband got to feel her kick for the first time the other day and the look on his face was priceless.  I LOVED it.

I'm getting pretty big and round already!  I recently went to an expecting Moms meetup.com group and there were these tiny pregnant women over 30 weeks who made me look like a cow.  Oh well.  Everyone carries differently I guess.

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about what we went through back in December and January with our miscarriage.  Even when I got pregnant again I was still feeling a lot of anger over what happened but I've finally learned to let go of that.  It still makes me sad to think of it, the moment we realized our baby was definitely gone, and the look on my husbands face as it crumbled when he began to cry.  The way my legs wouldn't work at that first fateful ultrasound and I thought I would die.  Now that I have our little Hannah growing inside me, I feel differently.  As hard as it all was, it made me stronger, my husband stronger, and it made our marriage unbreakable.  I now truly believed it happened for a reason.  That God wanted to test our love and strength.  And when we passed the test, when we came together stronger than ever, He quickly gave us our new gift, our little baby girl.  I know that there is still time for bad things to happen but I don't think about that anymore.  I completely trust that this is our take home baby, and that we had to lose our other one in order to give life to this one.  Right now, I couldn't be more grateful.

 

Pure Pregnant Rage...over french fries.

So, the other day I had a hardcore McDonald's craving and I wanted french fries in the worst way.  Theo was already on his way out to run some errands which were right by the McDonald's so he promised to pick me up some.

Well, the dummy came back empty-handed.  As a result, he got the pleasure of experiencing some pure pregnant rage.  I yelled at him, I cried, I stomped my feet.  I said, "No noooo noooo, pleassse" over and over.  I kicked him out of our room and he called me an ass.  That prompted some more crying while sitting on my bed....that then turned into hysterical laughter once I realized how crazy I was...until I sneezed, peed my bed and started crying again.

Hubby and I made up of course and all is well.  But I will be honest.  I am struggling pretty bad with my emotions lately.  I've been feeling very down the last few days for no reason.  I was supposed to spend time with a girlfriend today and when she cancelled on me last minute, I just kind of lost it (not on her, luckily).  One thing is clear:  these hormones...they are RAGING!

The moments that make it all SO worth it.

As you know, pregnancy has not been so kind to me.  I've had severe morning sickness and pretty much every other negative symptom you can get.  It's no secret.  I'm not a fan of pregnancy.

However, start at about 15w4d I slowly started feeling better.  Don't get me wrong.  I am in way feeling that so called "Honeymoon" phase.  But my nausea is now mild and that is a HUGE relief.  In it's place I've been blessed with some nice migraines and horrible heartburn.  But you know what?  I can deal.

Recently I started feeling Hannah move and it's changed the way I feel about this pregnancy.  They started as tickly little flutters and now I'm feeling some full on thumps!  I absolutely LOVE it.  It makes all the bad days worth it.  And I love listening to her with my doppler moving around all crazy with her strong heart beating.  I'm bonding with her, for real now, and I'm already so in love.

We recently went on a "babymoon" to the Bahamas and had a great time.  I was in a bathing suit most of the trip and am now very visibly pregnant.  I love that part too.  I love when people look at my belly and then smile at me knowingly. 

We've bought so much stuff already and I can't wait to share it with all of you.  I will post some pictures in my next post! 

I am 18 weeks today and could not be happier!  I cannot WAIT to meet this little girl!

So I pee my pants....often.

Peeing my pants has become a daily occurrence.  The other day I sneezed once and excitedly told my husband I didn't pee!  The next thing that came out of my mouth was ANOTHER sneeze and welp, there it went.  I ran up to go to the bathroom and Theo starts pointing at the couch, laughing hysterically saying "Babe, you PEED the couch!"  Yes, I peed the couch.  I have also peed while sitting on my bed, while vomiting over a toilet, and in a restaurant booth when I laughed too hard.

I am only 15w4d.  I have a feeling things will only get worse.  Pregnancy is just SO sexy.  ;)

BTW-  I want to invite anyone who reads my blog to friend me over on Facebook.  I have a special account JUST for my TWW/TTC friends where I post a lot more pictures and stuff than you will find here.  Feel free to send me a request!

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100003769680667

It's a....

GIRL!!!!!! We had our elective u/s on Saturday and found out we're having a sweet little girl. Her name will be Hannah Jean and we are so in love already <3

Finally in the 2nd Trimester!

Yesterday I had a regular OB visit at 13w3d. I was nervous, as always because I wasn't sure what they were actually going to do. My Dr. whipped out the doppler which made me even MORE nervous because I am a bigger girl and I hear so many stories of not being able to find the heartbeat with the doppler. But the moment he put it on my belly, there is was! A nice strong galloping heartbeat going around 158-160. It's such a beautiful sound.

In the last two weeks my belly has grown so much and I have felt SO much bigger. I was sure the scale would say I gained 5-10 pounds. But I lost another two! I'm actually down 2 pounds from my original starting weight. Made me feel good because I am a bigger girl anyway so there shouldn't be a lot of weight for me to gain. If I could gain under 25 pounds overall that would be ideal for me. I'd prefer under 15 even. My Mom had been making comments all week that I had to have gained a lot so it felt nice to through it back at her lol.

Here's a comparison photo collage of my belly pics so far. I've really started to pop!




Oh and in case anyone is wondering, Yes, I am still sick. Pretty badly too. It's sad because I'm kind of getting used to it. Maybe just be what pregnancy does to me.

Holy Heartburn & U/S Update!

First the good news! I had my 11w2d ultrasound on Monday and it went great! Check out this cutie!



Baby measured perfectly and was moving all over the place! Lots of backflips! Maybe our LO will be a gymnast like Mommy was! Heart rate was nice and strong at 160! Theo was smiling from ear to ear. Oh and we officially came out on facebook! Here is our announcement....I wrote "There is a little Pizza in the oven...Fully baked by October 2012" with this picture:



Now a little complaining time. Morning sickness has only gotten worse and is still all day long sickness. I puke about 5+ times a day. And 3 days ago I started getting HORRID heartburn. It's pretty much nonstop. Tums have become my new best friend.

I'll be coming into the second trimester soon (I'm 11w4d today) and I'm hoping some of these symptoms subside! I'm starting to get used to them at least. Seeing the smile on my husbands face everyday now because he is so happy about this baby just warms my heart. Vomiting sucks...heartburn blows...but I gotta say...Life is still pretty damn good :) WOuldn't have it any other way!